happilyer

ummm.
hi.

today i had a midterm in biomechanics. biomechanics is my hardest class because it's all about the forces associated with movement and stuff like that. well ... i am an english/phys ed major and physics really isn't my speciality. so i have to work really hard to understand a little concept. that is very frustrating because usually i don't have to work that hard to get my head around things. but last night pete was explaining momentum and negative acceleration to me (acceleration can be positive with a decreasing velocity when velocity is decreasing in a negative direction.. wtf?) and i just about lost it on him because i was so frustrated that i couldn't understand. i think this course will be a serious character builder for me because it will probably be the first time since math in high school that it will actually be hard and not just time consuming. i'm excited, let's not kid ourselves. biomechanics is cool. very cool. and it almost makes me want to switch into kinesiology because i realize that i like the science part of phys ed more than i like the teaching part. interesting.

okay seriously this crisis of "what do i want to do with my life" is supposed to not hit me. not me. i am supposed to be a teacher and that is how it has been since junior high and there was never any doubt. maybe the problem is that the lack of doubt caused me to not explore any other options and subsequently now that this whole science/sporty world has been opened up to me i am seeing all the exciting alternatives. there's nothing wrong with teaching and i could do it happily but maybe i could do something different happilyer? med school, what?

damnit.