January 23, 2010
coffee
I want to get back in the habit of writing and these seems like as good a place to do it as any. However, I always feel like I need to prove myself here. No, not prove myself. Just that I need to have something to say. And these days I really don't. A couple of weeks ago I dropped a full cup of coffee down the stairs and on the second bounce the lid popped off and coffee flew all over the white carpet and the beige walls. I then proceeded to let out a string of curse words that lasted for a solid 45 seconds until my mom came running and told me not to use language like that. She probably would have said something too if my little sister wasn't around because it was a mess. It took about four days to finally get it all out, using a baking soda and water mixture multiple times. Then, about two days later, I was in the car putting the lid on my travel mug, but I had filled it too full and coffee started pouring out the sides of the mug and all over my pants and the seat of my car. Thankfully the pants were black so I didn't have to a) go home and change, or b) walk around all day looking like I had some crazy sort of accident, but the seat of my car has a big stain on it that I've just been avoiding. Then, a few days ago, I was sitting on my parent's white couch and I asked Taylor to pass me my mug of coffee from the kitchen and as she reached forward I reached back and my hand collided with the mug, spilling coffee all over the white couch. Actually, it only splashed a bit, but on a white couch it sure looks a lot. So we whisper panicked so as to not alert my mom, who was downstairs. We soaked it all up and then flipped the cushion over but if you look close you can still see it a bit. If my mom says anything we'll both just play dumb. Maybe this is a sign that I should stop drinking (so much) coffee but I refuse to let that be the case. I've just started being more careful.
January 15, 2010
a note
well, it's friday night so what better way to spend it than writing on here. oh yes. i know you all want an update on the progress of my hero journey. try to contain yourselves. it will come when i reach the next stage.
so. i'm in kelowna now. here is pointform list of things of note.
- i have found delicious sushi in a little market by house and i would eat it everyday but i am learning a skill called will power. is will power a skill? i sure hope it is.
- i have to leave my house at 8:27 every morning to be at my school by 8:30. i usually end up leaving at 8:33.
- i play rec volleyball with a very random assortment of people and it is hilarious and fun. we won on wednesday!
- i play on a women's indoor soccer team and get my ass kicked by women my mom's age every monday night. but i scored two goals in my first game so i feel like i have proven myself a little bit at least.
- i am nervous about teaching phys ed. my first unit is gymnastics and there will be kids hanging upside down on the rings. wtf!
- i have made zero friends. this is kind of sad but i have only really been here for like 10 days so i am not sweating it.
- i am going snowshoeing on sunday! i just made this plan right this instant and i am sticking to it.
- the shower here has amazing water pressure and i never knew what i was missing out on until now.
- it's probably time i get a kelowna phone number but i feel like this will cause problems since i always give out my cell number and i don't know who i need to update about it.
- i got a snuggie for christmas.
- and i had an amazing time in mexico at new years!
- i am going to the gym now! yes, what a friday!
so. i'm in kelowna now. here is pointform list of things of note.
- i have found delicious sushi in a little market by house and i would eat it everyday but i am learning a skill called will power. is will power a skill? i sure hope it is.
- i have to leave my house at 8:27 every morning to be at my school by 8:30. i usually end up leaving at 8:33.
- i play rec volleyball with a very random assortment of people and it is hilarious and fun. we won on wednesday!
- i play on a women's indoor soccer team and get my ass kicked by women my mom's age every monday night. but i scored two goals in my first game so i feel like i have proven myself a little bit at least.
- i am nervous about teaching phys ed. my first unit is gymnastics and there will be kids hanging upside down on the rings. wtf!
- i have made zero friends. this is kind of sad but i have only really been here for like 10 days so i am not sweating it.
- i am going snowshoeing on sunday! i just made this plan right this instant and i am sticking to it.
- the shower here has amazing water pressure and i never knew what i was missing out on until now.
- it's probably time i get a kelowna phone number but i feel like this will cause problems since i always give out my cell number and i don't know who i need to update about it.
- i got a snuggie for christmas.
- and i had an amazing time in mexico at new years!
- i am going to the gym now! yes, what a friday!
December 20, 2009
hero's journey
it seems a bit crazy to say this but the reason i made this blog was to document my adventures in victoria. i was 18, just heading off to university, and i wanted to blog about it. and blog i did. oh how i blogged.
and now, i'm done in victoria. not done university, mind you. not a grad. but i'm done in victoria. after 5.5 years. and this blog has always been here. sometimes it's had a more prominent role than others. it went strong for a long time and then slowly faded, but it's always been in the back of mind. i have a million entries and a million more drafts that i began to type and then abandoned for whatever reason.
and now i am heading on my way. on to whatever journey is next for me. well, a practicum first. but i know that will be a journey too. and in my head i've been thinking of my life in terms of the hero's journey.
really. and now i shall begin to spill my guts.
1. the ordinary world. my life last semester and through the summer. i wasn't happy, hadn't been for a long time.
2. the call to adventure. realizing i didn't have to stay in victoria for my practicum. the initial falling apart of my relationship.
3. the refusal of the call. the "let's make it work" portion of the relationship, the idea of being on my own after so long of being an us was just not appealing.
4. meeting a mentor. not sure who my mentor is/was specifically, but i know it happened. i got the kick of confidence i needed and was ready to let go.
5. crossing the threshold. moving to kelowna?
yeah, it gets kind of fuzzy. i leave my ordinary world and enter this new world. i'm still in the early stages (there are twelve). this is ultra dorky, i realize, but hero's journeys are happening all the time. i think i'm in a different hero's journey with school, or a similar one but i'd have to use different reference points. but seriously, at some point i will return back to the ordinary world (though i don't think that means victoria specifically) with the elixir!
anyway, it is a lot a lot a lot for me. but the point is this:
WTF?!
how can this be? how can i be done with what i set out to do in victoria? what i set out to do was having amazing life experiences, obtain a b.ed. and learn to surf. two outta three ain't bad. i'm happy. i am excited. but also not terrified. having all this potential, all this unplanned and unorganized time freaks me out. granted, i do have a four month practicum that i will probably spend the majority of making grandiose life plans. that's my style. plus, i'm totally over this practicum, in my mind it's as good as done (BAD ATTITUDE!).
anyway, my apartment still needs A LOT more lovin' so that i can get my damage deposit back tomorrow. dishpan hands over here.
love,
your reluctant hero
and now, i'm done in victoria. not done university, mind you. not a grad. but i'm done in victoria. after 5.5 years. and this blog has always been here. sometimes it's had a more prominent role than others. it went strong for a long time and then slowly faded, but it's always been in the back of mind. i have a million entries and a million more drafts that i began to type and then abandoned for whatever reason.
and now i am heading on my way. on to whatever journey is next for me. well, a practicum first. but i know that will be a journey too. and in my head i've been thinking of my life in terms of the hero's journey.
really. and now i shall begin to spill my guts.
1. the ordinary world. my life last semester and through the summer. i wasn't happy, hadn't been for a long time.
2. the call to adventure. realizing i didn't have to stay in victoria for my practicum. the initial falling apart of my relationship.
3. the refusal of the call. the "let's make it work" portion of the relationship, the idea of being on my own after so long of being an us was just not appealing.
4. meeting a mentor. not sure who my mentor is/was specifically, but i know it happened. i got the kick of confidence i needed and was ready to let go.
5. crossing the threshold. moving to kelowna?
yeah, it gets kind of fuzzy. i leave my ordinary world and enter this new world. i'm still in the early stages (there are twelve). this is ultra dorky, i realize, but hero's journeys are happening all the time. i think i'm in a different hero's journey with school, or a similar one but i'd have to use different reference points. but seriously, at some point i will return back to the ordinary world (though i don't think that means victoria specifically) with the elixir!
anyway, it is a lot a lot a lot for me. but the point is this:
WTF?!
how can this be? how can i be done with what i set out to do in victoria? what i set out to do was having amazing life experiences, obtain a b.ed. and learn to surf. two outta three ain't bad. i'm happy. i am excited. but also not terrified. having all this potential, all this unplanned and unorganized time freaks me out. granted, i do have a four month practicum that i will probably spend the majority of making grandiose life plans. that's my style. plus, i'm totally over this practicum, in my mind it's as good as done (BAD ATTITUDE!).
anyway, my apartment still needs A LOT more lovin' so that i can get my damage deposit back tomorrow. dishpan hands over here.
love,
your reluctant hero
December 10, 2009
things in victoria that make me wanna stay
i will add to this. see how it goes.
1. when i turn down memorial and all of a sudden i see the ocean
2. the sooke potholes
3. my little apartment
4. my morning bus ride, it follows the ocean for a ways and it is beautiful
5. being able to walk to cook street village for a coffee
6. enjoying that coffee oceanside
7. the restaurants (oh god, the restaurants)
8. when you come down sinclair, to the top of cadboro bay hill, and you can see the ocean
9. the nice rainy days
10. free things on the side of the road
11. the bunnies
12. uvic campus, everyday.. i really love this place
13. that i am so close to even more beautiful places (tofino, gulf islands..)
14. using the coho horn to tell time
15. ol' one eye
1. when i turn down memorial and all of a sudden i see the ocean
2. the sooke potholes
3. my little apartment
4. my morning bus ride, it follows the ocean for a ways and it is beautiful
5. being able to walk to cook street village for a coffee
6. enjoying that coffee oceanside
7. the restaurants (oh god, the restaurants)
- spinnaker's
- le petit saigon
- il terrazzo
- the king & thai
- pagliacci's
8. when you come down sinclair, to the top of cadboro bay hill, and you can see the ocean
9. the nice rainy days
10. free things on the side of the road
11. the bunnies
12. uvic campus, everyday.. i really love this place
13. that i am so close to even more beautiful places (tofino, gulf islands..)
14. using the coho horn to tell time
15. ol' one eye
November 15, 2009
five year plan
phewph.
jeffrey moved to kelowna a month early. i am no longer a cat lady. well, i guess i am, if you wanna get technical. i am gonna miss that little guy.
this is what's up.
five more weeks left in victoria.
mexico at christmas.
four month practicum.
and then who knows? i have a million ideas.
i'm going to start applying for jobs at international schools soon. they say to start applying in november but i don't have any of my certification done yet, so i've gotta look into that. plus i need reference letters from my current school, so i might wait until i get into my practicum and then ask the vp or my sponsor teacher to refer me. it's a confusing process.
but, mostly, i want to go to med school. i have been dreaming up this five year plan for myself. it goes like this.
2010
january-april: complete my four month practicum, graduate!
may-june: move to alberta and get a toc position
july-august: wander, jenna's wedding
september-: move overseas (argentina, i hope) to teach
2010-2012
teach overseas.
2012-2014
do pre-req's for med school.
write the mcat.
do my applications.
2014
start med school!
don't those numbers like 2013 look so crazy. who thought we'd live to see these days. class of 2018 baby.
is it really horrible that i would consider putting med school off a year, in this fantasy plan, if it meant i could graduate in an odd-numbered year?
sometimes i don't like having big plans like this. i like suprises, adventures! but this is just an idea. i have a million ideas. but this is sort of how i see things going. maybe midwifery school instead of med school. haven't made that decision yet. it would be a lot easier, but i think i'd prefer going for the whole shebang. that's more my style. all or none.
jeffrey moved to kelowna a month early. i am no longer a cat lady. well, i guess i am, if you wanna get technical. i am gonna miss that little guy.
this is what's up.
five more weeks left in victoria.
mexico at christmas.
four month practicum.
and then who knows? i have a million ideas.
i'm going to start applying for jobs at international schools soon. they say to start applying in november but i don't have any of my certification done yet, so i've gotta look into that. plus i need reference letters from my current school, so i might wait until i get into my practicum and then ask the vp or my sponsor teacher to refer me. it's a confusing process.
but, mostly, i want to go to med school. i have been dreaming up this five year plan for myself. it goes like this.
2010
january-april: complete my four month practicum, graduate!
may-june: move to alberta and get a toc position
july-august: wander, jenna's wedding
september-: move overseas (argentina, i hope) to teach
2010-2012
teach overseas.
2012-2014
do pre-req's for med school.
write the mcat.
do my applications.
2014
start med school!
don't those numbers like 2013 look so crazy. who thought we'd live to see these days. class of 2018 baby.
is it really horrible that i would consider putting med school off a year, in this fantasy plan, if it meant i could graduate in an odd-numbered year?
sometimes i don't like having big plans like this. i like suprises, adventures! but this is just an idea. i have a million ideas. but this is sort of how i see things going. maybe midwifery school instead of med school. haven't made that decision yet. it would be a lot easier, but i think i'd prefer going for the whole shebang. that's more my style. all or none.
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