dreambaby

i've been having funny little dreams lately that i can't really distinguish from reality. like pete telling me that i should get an electric toothbrush because it will cut my brushing time in half. or seeing candice outside of the sub. i don't have dreams very often. well, now i do. but i never really used to. pete would say "what did you dream about?" and i would say "nothing." and there was no feeling that i did have a dream and forgot it, it was purely nothing. and now there's always something there. some dream that i promise to remember and then forget. or there's those little dreams. maybe parts of big dreams or maybe just random glimpses into my subconscious. is that where dreams come from? i took psychology in high school and got 100% (bragbragbrag) but all i remember is about pavlov's dog (i also learned about that in motor learning second year) and that 1 in 5 albertans suffers from depression. i also remember a woman that came to talk to us about schizophrenia and she convinced me that one day i would become schizophrenic because i always used to be scared to think things because i could never tell who could hear my thoughts. she did not actually convince me but she talked about how paranoia is a leading symptom. that is not a normal behaviour so i was thinking about how if i knew i was going to get schizophrenia then when i got it i would be able to say "no, taryn, those voices aren't real. ignore them. you are just schizophrenic." that's kind of unimportant now and i don't think like that anymore. anyway, i've been having dreams lately.